I'm going to California, a place where the sun always shines....

What's worse.... being surface and distant because you don't know any better or being surface and distant because you're tired of putting yourself out there and feeling like an alien for having a real heart with real desires and real passion that cannot be contained? Stupid California. Bea's friend Mary Kay is in town. She goes to West Ga. It's so nice to have her. A real human, normal and fun. I don't hate California. It probably sounds like I do... but I don't. Sometimes I just get frustrated. I desire some kinship ya know? Hard to find depth here, it gets somewhat lonely. It will be okay though, it's all part of the experience, the learning and growing. I believe what we have brought from the south will overcome the culture here. All of this distance between me and familiarity has really brought me to realize things about life, friendships, my parents, dad especially, and myself. I think everyone should travel, see the US at least, move away from home.... even it's only for 6 months. You'll thank yourself when you see how much more well-rounded you've become. Not that I'm the greatest but I am thankful for all of these experiences. I love Jesus for putting the desire in me to do this, to be here. He's pretty rad. Last night I had a dream that I saw the biggest swell of my life. It was so intense, I almost got sucked off the cliff. I think I've rambled enough about the craziness that has been in my head lately. Holla