Fairytales...

Retarded. Yep. Since the age of about 15 or 16 I have believed with all of my heart that fairytales are lies from satan and Walt Disney.

So now I'm getting older and more hopeful. BUT I'm still not banking on that lovey dovey gushy stuff HOWEVER........

All I really want is a Cliff and Claire Huxtable kind of love. If you don't already know I have a huge obsession with Bill Cosby. I love The Cosby Show! So much so that Bea has bought me Season 7 and Season 8 of the Cosby Show.

Cliff and Claire are just great. Cliff is so hilarious you just have to love him and Claire always plays along. Also, have you watched Dr. Huxtable teach his kids a lesson? The man is SMART. I don't really have the words to describe why it is that I love this man and his show so much but it's pretty intense.

Don't worry, I know that it is just a TV show but a girl can dream right? While every other girl in America is dreaming about The Notebook I'll be happy hoping for a Dr. Huxtable :)

Bill Cosby for President 2012!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bad Eyeballs.

Wearing my last pair of contacts now. Left contact has a chunk missing. Feels like there is something in my eye. I have known for a while that this was my last pair but I've been putting off an exam because who really wants to spend money on an eye exam and contacts? I knew it would take a chunk missing to make me get an appt. So, I made an appointment today for tomorrow at 4:30.

You're asking yourself,"Does she really think that I care?"

I know you don't BUT this is where the story gets good. I didn't go to the eye doctor a long time ago when I should have because I didn't want to pay whether or not I could afford it. Rewind to Friday. I get a big envelope in the mail from Julie at Southern Drywall with a bunch of mail that had been stacking up in the office. She added a note that said she thought I might need it. Well, she thought right. Smart woman. In the stack of mail there was a new HSA debit card for me. Which is for my health savings account. I didn't even think I had money left in there but when I called today to check my balance today the customer service rep informed me of my balance and my jaw hit the floor. Not only can I use my HSA to pay for the eye doctor tomorrow but I can get glasses if I want and go to the dentist for the next few years.

See, I've been a big mess for a long year and I'm starting to come back around and it feels so good. Even when I'm a mess Jesus loves me. He doesn't give up on me, leave me or talk negatively of me. He loves me and provides for me. Even in the small things like a chunk missing out of my contact. So glad I know him, so glad I'm his. Love is real.

Back in the swinggggg

Back in San Diego. I really did miss this weather and the cool, crisp air. Had $1 shrimp tacos tonight (another glorious thing about SD- taco tuesdays)!

It was so so so so good to be home. I feel like it was everything I needed it to be and much more. I feel so refreshed and renewed. Being around people that really know me and really love me helped me remember who I really am and who I want to be.

Surprisingly I'm doing alright considering I left the south a few days ago. I feel pretty content. I think good things are coming and I'm excited to see what that will look like.

My nephews started school yesterday. Taylor is in 6th grade!! INSANE! Cade already got in trouble. It's only the second day. Haha. That boy is so crazy. I love them so much it's ridiculous.

Elle (one of my twins) started calling me by name and it is the cutest thing EVER and Jackson calls me Mag now which, I think is adorable because he's never heard anyone else nickname me meaning he totally came up with it himself.

The end. bye

BFE

Loved:
-Swimmin with the nephews
-Time with my Paw-Paw
- Breakfast at Maw-Maw's
-Mean game of scrabble with the family
-My mama.....
-Middle of the night..... Ranburne......sweet time

Douglasville

Favorites:
-Beulah Elem. playground with Steven Hunter, Luke and Brittany. Hilarious! "I don't wanna go to math! I don't wanna go to math!" -Luke
-Sunday night. The whole crew from the Bell Motel ended up on the front steps talking and laughing til past dark. That's what I love and that is where I feel at home.
- Got to talk to an old mentor. Much needed wisdom, encouragement and prayer.

Tuesday to Friday Morning

So I spent Monday night - Friday morning at my sister and bro-in-law's house in Warner Robins. Rowan is so precious. During those days all we did was lay around, change diapers, hold Rowan and chat. It was really great. I haven't been that lazy in over a year. I enjoyed it but was def ready to get moving after a few days. Rowan is so sweet. I know that newborns are ugly. However, my sisters had beautiful babies from the start! Hollie and Alan are so in love with that baby. I can't fathom how it must feel to have one of your own. For years and years I have taken care of other people's kids and loved them but I know it probably doesn't even compare. I admit I was bored at times when Hollie was hogging Rowan but even in those times I was constantly reminding myself to just enjoy the moment. Hollie, Alan and Rowan are coming to Alabama this weekend but after that I probably won't get to see him again until Christmas. Talk about heart break...... so sad. On Thursday night we ate dinner at Cheddar's. Rowan's first out to eat trip! He did great and slept the whole time. Hollie is such a great mom. She is way more chill than I thought she would be. It is amazing. I am not surprised at all at the kind of dad Alan is. He is so wonderful. He treats Hollie so great and that baby is no different. He can't stand to be at work and away from that baby, he asks so many questions making sure Rowan has the best. So sweet. I really really hope that one day I can find a boy like Alan to marry me :)