I'm so sick of this.....
I am not cool with Jesus and it's been so long. I know, you're thinking, "read your Bible, pray, go to church" blah blah blah. You're right and I try to do those things. I feel like the wall of Jericho is between me and God.
I'm tired of taking care of people. I mean don't get me wrong, it's one of my gifts and I love doing it BUT can't a girl get a freaking break every now and then. I hope being a mom is nothing like this. I hope when they are yours it makes life sweet. I wish people could get up on their own, wipe their own butts, clean up after themselves and take care of ME for once. I'm a brat, I know.
I want rest. Real rest. I want to be with my family on Thanksgiving and have more than just that day off. I want to sit in the sand at the beach and read whatever I want to read and have no where to go.
On a much better note....
Our first preview service was on Sunday. So many things went wrong... like the truck running out of gas that had all of our equipment and supplies in it, our sound didn't work until go time, a lot of confusion outside of the theatres, a sick children's director, and many other things that will go unmentioned. HOWEVER: a man who grew up catholic received Christ and wants to be baptised before our next service. We had around 70 people, if I heard right, and 8-10 kids in Elevate Kids. It was hectic none the less but it was so neat seeing God's hand in everything. Our next service is December 7th.
2 comments:
aww, maggie, i found your blog through ashli and i just couldn't help but write to encourage you. keep pressin on sister. it sounds so tough, and i can't relate to exactly what you are going through so i wont pretend. but from what i know our God will work it out for you...maybe not the way we think...but He will. thanks for being willing to go. words are pretty empty so i will just say...i am praying for you.
maggie i completely understand where u are coming from about you and God...i feel the same way right now..and ur right we know the answers to fix it but sometimes that doesn't seem to help...i also get the worn out part too i've been working 6 days a week 10 hours a day...its so draining...but through it all we have to remember why we are where we are and what we are here to do...remember its just a season of life and He will bring you through this too...love you maggs!!
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