17 weeks with Baby Boy #2

-I can feel you move now! Such sweet reminders during the day that you are alive and active.
-When I think about you and Hank together my heart just swells. I am so happy that you two will have one another.
-Your dad and I cannot find a name we both like. I'm not surprised. I want to call you by your name.
-Your brother is loud and gets redirected a lot. I'm wondering how all of my frustrations will effect you. Or is it affect?
-My mind is all over the place. I can't remember how to spell basic words, I forget the names of people I've known forever. I constantly feel like I'm forgetting something.
-Your dad turned 29 yesterday. How are we that old?
-The Lord is really growing me during this season. I'm in a study on Wednesday nights and we are reading and discussing "The Me I Want To Be" by John Ortwell. Cheryl Henegar is teaching and she is such an encouragement to my heart. I am hungrier than ever to be who Christ wants me to be. I also am struggling more than ever to die to myself daily, or minute by minute. I need to give grace more freely and I need to tap into my inner "The Maggie Nunnelly" more. "The Maggie Nunnelly" as in I don't care what you think or who you are, I'm gonna do what the Lord has called me to do. Love it or leave it.
-This month I will complete my Post Partum Doula training. I have 2 years to complete my certification with CAPPA. I'm looking forward to loving on mamas, babies, and daddies. I look forward to wrapping you up or carrying you on my back, nursing you, and helping these women embrace the confidence within them. So excited to be taking steps in this direction. Praying the Lord will bless me in this calling and passion and that I will always make him the reason for it all.
-I love you, little child. I can't wait to hold you in my arms. I can't wait for you and Hank to meet. You are gonna love your daddy. Him and Hank were shooting hoops last night. I can't even explain my love for you. I can't imagine giving my son. I can't imagine going to the top of the mountain like Abraham and Isaac. I want to know God like that. And honestly, that is scary to my human heart. I want you to know him like that too and I hope that you will see it in me and desire Him more.