convict

and young jeezy.


okay seriously. conviction. sometimes the Holy Spirit convicts me instantly and sometimes i'm stubborn. i try to justify why my sin is okay and i am not wrong. 


justification is stupid. i am wrong and i was wrong. the Lord is definitely disciplining me right now. i tend to get very down on myself when i fail. i don't want to talk to anyone about it and especially not God. silly, i know. God gives grace freely and he disciplines those that He loves. the first thing i should do is run to Him, ask for forgiveness and accept the new start he offers. easier said than done.


every day this week i have been writing proverbs 10:19 down TWICE. 


the new american standard bible says it like this, 

"19 When there are many words, transgression is unavoidable, But he who restrains his lips is wise." Provers 10:19


my mom (and thumper's mom) have always said, "if you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say anything at all." 


that is SO true. if what you are saying doesn't lift someone up then it's best you don't say anything at all. i have too many flaws to count. i know for sure i don't need anyone talking about them or pointing them out. unfortunately they are pretty obvious. so i'm sure that it is not beneficial to talk about the flaws in other people. 


here's a thought... by speaking of others in a not pretty light i am just exposing the ugly in my heart. YIKES.


Jesus, get it out. please. make me beautiful. forgive me and make me new.