Wild at Heart.

Yep. Started it today and will finish it tomorrow. I cannot put it down. It has me more captivated than Captivating did years ago. Those Eldredge authors are smart ones. I said I would read it years ago and never did. I was in Borders this week talking to Brittany on the phone and saw Wild at Heart on the shelf and said something out loud about it. Brittany encouraged me to read it and said it would be a very good idea to read it especially considering where I'm at in life right now. Well, she was not kidding. Not only am I realizing things about man's heart but my own. I honestly thought this book would help explain men and why many men aren't men and I thought I'd probably do some finger pointing. Yep. I have been so strongly convicted about my own wounds. This book is breaking me. It is a little painful but it even quotes the scripture that says the Lord disciplines those he loves. So as much as I hate it, I'll take it. As much as I don't want to look closely at my hurts or faults, I will. I will go there with Jesus in hopes of a new heart. In hopes of transformation. In hopes of a better future. I am nothing without Him. I will cling to Him. I keep getting scared and I keep thinking about the verse the preschoolers at Elevate talked about a few weeks ago.... Do not be afraid. God says that a lot in the Bible. So that means I'm not alone in my fear. However, His strength is made perfect in weakness. I will rest in that.

Thank you Jesus for thinking about me. For caring. For naming me. For loving me before I was ever a twinkle in my mom and dad's eyes. Help me to be who you have created me to be. Help me to follow you and to honor you always. Those are of great importance to me.